[IMMEDIATELY JUST shoving himself into Baren's space and whacking his hands away... He'll take care of doing that bandage up properly since apparently Baren's irritation has taken away all of his first aid skills.
But that's some very real frustration, still... He's kind of surprised to see it at all, considering how cagey Baren tends to be. Is it just him or is he hearing more honest things lately?? HM.
...He isn't actually going to be helpful with solving a problem like this, though. He doesn't know what it's like. He's been married to Yasusada from day one without actually realizing it, pretty much.]
Mm... Some people are just loyal, y'know? You don't have to not be human for that. And it's really hard to actually get your feelings to listen to what your head says sometimes, too. It's not his fault, but it's not yours either.
that said it's mostly tired - and he'll accept it when Kashuu insists on taking over, shaking his head. he reaches up to his hair, fussing with it and admits openly for once:] Pretty sure this is my fault somewhere.
[being too pretty or something
... or something other than that. Asking for too much and not giving enough in return. Taking a perfectly kind and loyal person and fucking them up somewhere along the way. Ruining everything he touches like a sickness.
he doesn't say that out loud, either.
it's totally being too pretty]
... guess I'm just waiting for him to get his head on straight after three years. There are better things to waste your time on, you know?
I mean, you can say that sorta stuff all you want, but it's not like you can decide what's important or not to him, y'know?
[Though he won't bother speaking in more detail than that, because relationships are messy and Baren Relationships™ are even messier. He may sometimes misstep, but he's not like Yasusada, who puts his foot in his mouth way too often to count. He's quite careful not to overspeak in these kind of situations.
Once he's done loosening that bandage and fixing it back up properly, he'll move on to the next one, apparently deciding that Baren just needs help fullstop.]
I can try to convince him that his priorities are fucked.
[In simpler terms - he can try to convince Chuuya that he's not worth it. It's what he's been doing, even if the words don't quite make it out of his mouth. There's a self-loathing that Baren can't quite shake, but it's too pathetic for him to admit out loud.
[i still can't believe no one guns for baren's blood as hard as dana]
Yeah, but you get what I'm getting at too, right?
["Don't blame yourself". It's a lot to ask from someone which is why he doesn't say it in as many words, but really, there's only heartache in trying to accept responsibility for someone else's feelings.]
[And he means to say it more flippantly - but he's still thoughtful. He hears the old man sigh and some part of him feels... guilty? For putting an additional burden on Kashuu.
So he reaches up a moment later to give him a little pat on the head.]
What were you headed into the kitchen for? Want me to make dinner while Yamyamtaro is passed out?
[Don't feel guilty Baren, he was an old man before any of this shit happened.]
Yeah, I was gonna make something. You don't have to, though - you're more hurt than I am.
[Thanks to his cheatingass healing powers that have knocked out every injury except the major ones (which have been subsequently reduced to moderate), and whatever his blade reflects.]
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[IMMEDIATELY JUST shoving himself into Baren's space and whacking his hands away... He'll take care of doing that bandage up properly since apparently Baren's irritation has taken away all of his first aid skills.
But that's some very real frustration, still... He's kind of surprised to see it at all, considering how cagey Baren tends to be. Is it just him or is he hearing more honest things lately?? HM.
...He isn't actually going to be helpful with solving a problem like this, though. He doesn't know what it's like. He's been married to Yasusada from day one without actually realizing it, pretty much.]
Mm... Some people are just loyal, y'know? You don't have to not be human for that. And it's really hard to actually get your feelings to listen to what your head says sometimes, too. It's not his fault, but it's not yours either.
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[even when he's being stupid!!!
that said it's mostly tired - and he'll accept it when Kashuu insists on taking over, shaking his head. he reaches up to his hair, fussing with it and admits openly for once:] Pretty sure this is my fault somewhere.
[being too pretty or something
... or something other than that. Asking for too much and not giving enough in return. Taking a perfectly kind and loyal person and fucking them up somewhere along the way. Ruining everything he touches like a sickness.
he doesn't say that out loud, either.
it's totally being too pretty]
... guess I'm just waiting for him to get his head on straight after three years. There are better things to waste your time on, you know?
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[Though he won't bother speaking in more detail than that, because relationships are messy and Baren Relationships™ are even messier. He may sometimes misstep, but he's not like Yasusada, who puts his foot in his mouth way too often to count. He's quite careful not to overspeak in these kind of situations.
Once he's done loosening that bandage and fixing it back up properly, he'll move on to the next one, apparently deciding that Baren just needs help fullstop.]
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[In simpler terms - he can try to convince Chuuya that he's not worth it. It's what he's been doing, even if the words don't quite make it out of his mouth. There's a self-loathing that Baren can't quite shake, but it's too pathetic for him to admit out loud.
until he gets burnt to a crisp but y'know]
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Yeah, but you get what I'm getting at too, right?
["Don't blame yourself". It's a lot to ask from someone which is why he doesn't say it in as many words, but really, there's only heartache in trying to accept responsibility for someone else's feelings.]
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... Maybe, maybe not.
[and if he even listens to the advice is another matter entirely. some things still make baren very clumsy.
like.
emotions.]
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Here. Are any of these too tight?
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[And he means to say it more flippantly - but he's still thoughtful. He hears the old man sigh and some part of him feels... guilty? For putting an additional burden on Kashuu.
So he reaches up a moment later to give him a little pat on the head.]
What were you headed into the kitchen for? Want me to make dinner while Yamyamtaro is passed out?
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Yeah, I was gonna make something. You don't have to, though - you're more hurt than I am.
[Thanks to his cheatingass healing powers that have knocked out every injury except the major ones (which have been subsequently reduced to moderate), and whatever his blade reflects.]
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[look,
sometimes the truth hurts too]
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[EVEN IF IT'S TRUE, LET HIM LIVE...]
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[NO!!!
But honestly, Kashuu's been doing plenty....]
It's the least I can do - up until we go grab that blood orange parfait.
[THEIR PACT]
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Don't forget it, okay? [Their pact! Their parfait!! He's still adamantly not letting Baren do more work than necessary though, so--]
I think we have some frozen leftovers that I can just reheat.
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[LET HIM DECIDE WHAT TO MAKE]
Take a nap, Kiyo. I'll wake you when it's done.
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MAKING THIS FACE IN BAREN'S DIRECTION. Does he want to argue this out? Is this the hill he wants to die on?? ...Nah.]
Fine. [He makes it sound like he just agreed to wash all of Baren's dirty socks by hand or something, lord.] ...Thanks.