[ - that he doesn't know how to kill now. Baren so accidentally fell back into his old skills from a time that he barely knows. He doesn't know what to do with them now.]
... you know, I don't think the world is black and white. The other you might've had to kill just to stay alive, or someone convinced you that it was something you had to do.
Persuasion can be poison too.
It might not take away from the bad things he did, but it doesn't mean that he was a bad person if that's what you're having trouble reconciling.
[ it's not like odasaku had ever believed the world could be defined so easily as 'black' or 'white' and 'good' and 'evil'. he had wrote and read novels where the protagonist could be described, at best, an anti-hero.
but in every one of those times, it was all fiction. he had never been involved in any of those situations, unlike now. now he has this idea finally in front of him and...it's a lot more difficult to understand.
but maybe he's not meant to understand it in the first place. maybe he's just supposed to accept it the way it is, and not question it. he's a killer, but he's not a bad person. he's not a good person either, though. that's just how it is. ]
It's tough to deal with all of this. All these memories.
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[ - that he doesn't know how to kill now. Baren so accidentally fell back into his old skills from a time that he barely knows. He doesn't know what to do with them now.]
... you know, I don't think the world is black and white. The other you might've had to kill just to stay alive, or someone convinced you that it was something you had to do.
Persuasion can be poison too.
It might not take away from the bad things he did, but it doesn't mean that he was a bad person if that's what you're having trouble reconciling.
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[ it's not like odasaku had ever believed the world could be defined so easily as 'black' or 'white' and 'good' and 'evil'. he had wrote and read novels where the protagonist could be described, at best, an anti-hero.
but in every one of those times, it was all fiction. he had never been involved in any of those situations, unlike now. now he has this idea finally in front of him and...it's a lot more difficult to understand.
but maybe he's not meant to understand it in the first place. maybe he's just supposed to accept it the way it is, and not question it. he's a killer, but he's not a bad person. he's not a good person either, though. that's just how it is. ]
It's tough to deal with all of this. All these memories.
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... You're not doing too bad, I think.
[You're doing as best as you can, and that's enough.]
Is it just tough reconciling the other you and the current one?