[It's a perfectly fair answer, but it makes Yasusada sigh quietly anyway. He lets his head drop back against the couch, staring at the ceiling as he tries to gather his thoughts. Talking to Kashuu about his feelings towards their friend and former master would involve Kashuu openly acknowledging what he is, in a way he's pointedly tried not to do since the beginning. When they do talk, it's going to be a very long conversation... if Kashuu doesn't brush him off and bolt, anyway.]
...they talked to each other without telling me, for a while.
[When he finally speaks again, there's no pain or accusation in his voice, just a hint of soft nostalgia.]
Maybe they kept in touch while Kiyomitsu was gone, I don't know. But I know he came over to our apartment a few times. Soujirou-kun... I didn't even know he was still in the city until last year. Kiyomitsu never did mention it, even after I told him we'd met again.
[Even he's not sure why he's telling Baren all of this. Maybe just to put it out into the open--saying it to either Kashuu or Soujirou themselves would feel too much like an accusation, when it's not. Maybe it's an unspoken question--"what does it mean?"--though Baren certainly wouldn't have an answer to that. Yasusada might acknowledge that Baren knows a lot about a lot of things, but he's certainly not omnipotent. And Yasusada doesn't expect him to be.]
[ . . . it's a tricky place to navigate. Baren already doesn't have the best grasp on relationships, on emotions, as new to the former as he is and as much as he tries to suppress the latter. Still, he listens easily when Yamato explains, if all that Yamato needs is someone to listen.
Some part of Baren thinks that maybe he should tell his sword what to do, because that's what a master's role is meant to be. To provide that guidance, that purpose -
But despite everything he'd said, it's hard to acknowledge Yamato as a sword and a sword alone. This is a part of his human life. The part that belonged to him, and only him.]
... Kiyo's your partner in everything, but he probably still has a hard time talking about the stuff that matters to him. That's too sore for him to acknowledge.
[Yamato was the one who'd told him about how Kashuu left the city, after all. This is Baren's best guess.]
... I don't think he realizes how it might make you feel. He's not always self-centered, really, but... sometimes when it's painful, the lens gets smaller, you know?
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...they talked to each other without telling me, for a while.
[When he finally speaks again, there's no pain or accusation in his voice, just a hint of soft nostalgia.]
Maybe they kept in touch while Kiyomitsu was gone, I don't know. But I know he came over to our apartment a few times. Soujirou-kun... I didn't even know he was still in the city until last year. Kiyomitsu never did mention it, even after I told him we'd met again.
[Even he's not sure why he's telling Baren all of this. Maybe just to put it out into the open--saying it to either Kashuu or Soujirou themselves would feel too much like an accusation, when it's not. Maybe it's an unspoken question--"what does it mean?"--though Baren certainly wouldn't have an answer to that. Yasusada might acknowledge that Baren knows a lot about a lot of things, but he's certainly not omnipotent. And Yasusada doesn't expect him to be.]
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Some part of Baren thinks that maybe he should tell his sword what to do, because that's what a master's role is meant to be. To provide that guidance, that purpose -
But despite everything he'd said, it's hard to acknowledge Yamato as a sword and a sword alone. This is a part of his human life. The part that belonged to him, and only him.]
... Kiyo's your partner in everything, but he probably still has a hard time talking about the stuff that matters to him. That's too sore for him to acknowledge.
[Yamato was the one who'd told him about how Kashuu left the city, after all. This is Baren's best guess.]
... I don't think he realizes how it might make you feel. He's not always self-centered, really, but... sometimes when it's painful, the lens gets smaller, you know?