...if things end up going wrong, you said to stop you. I- might need you to do it, too.

[he doesn't quite look at baren, eyes still averted for now. it's still difficult, but- best to just get the worst of it out.]

You know how I remembered being in pretty bad shape, when I was working with Dazai? I know what did that. I did that.

[chuuya pauses, sucks in another breath, exhales slowly.]

If he didn't stop me, I'd have been dead.

[he'll fill in details in a minute. right now, this is what matters.]