[It's silent for a while and it's almost thought that maybe Baren is ignoring the answer but then, suddenly:]
Why not?
[It comes out a little more sharply - frustrated as Baren is. There's the surge of text again, flooding a thought bubble -
Why wouldn't you want anyone else? You know there are good people in this city? Against all odds, there are some seriously good people in this city. You can't tell me that you haven't met them. They make sense. Anyone can fall in love with Foxy, especially your dramatic ass. And even the strangers - they still surprise me with how good they are. They're good people. So why not them? They won't leave you after nightmares. They won't break up with you without explanation. They won't hesitate to trust you. They're not fucked up.
Don't you realize what you're waiting for is a disaster?]
[there's silence from him too, at first, while he processes that, but--]
Mm... good people are too boring, I guess? Foxy already let me down easy anyway.
[it's too flippant an answer to be his real one, though. he's just putting his thoughts together a bit more.]
I think you're less of a disaster than you think you are. Yeah, you fucked up when you broke it off, I'm not gonna say you didn't, but... you've still been around for me, you know? You pick up when I call you at ass o'clock in the middle of the night drunk, you keep my secrets, you listen to my issues...
And it's not like I'm not fucked up, either. It's just... fuck, they're not you. That's all it comes down to. They won't sneak in my window to make breakfast or paintbomb a professor who was a dick to me or go out in the middle of the night to do stupid shit together. I don't want them to do it, anyway.
He didn't expect a why. Sometimes Baren's biggest mistake is forgetting that Chuuya's so blindly honest. At times it's refreshing and it's part of why he likes him so much -
Baren's not looking over at Chuuya's thought bubbles, instead just pressing his face into his hand and trying to school himself out of his own irritation.]
Stupid. Stupid.
[Calm down, fucker. What is even going on? Ugh. I hate him.]
Tanuki, we're going.
[Tanuki does a confused little wiggle at that - are they leaving?]
[I don't know. Whatever, I've got a decent stash left if I can't sleep.
he's not looking at baren or the bubble, though, already stretching out on the couch and reaching for his phone. time to catch up on messages and shit.]
[Looking back at Chuuya as he is, Baren doesn't miss the bubble.
And he leaves it at that, shaking his head and walking out.
.... it's about twenty minutes later that Chuuya might hear the faint scratching of paws against a window, trying to nudge it open.
Tanuki fights against its weight as, much like his owner, he seems to have no personal boundary or respect for things that are meant to be closed off to him.]
[shut up he can hold one sided conversations with animals in his own home, let him live
tanuki's not wrong, chuuya is a sucker who catches him without complaint, smiling down at him.]
Just here for the attention, huh... well, I don't mind.
[though now that he's here without baren... chuuya's realizing he's not sure how to be responsible for this small animal beyond giving it affection? he'll need water, right? but- hm. he pulls his phone out to shoot baren a quick message.]
if you lost your tanuki he's back here btw, also what do I give him if he gets hungry?? the fuck does a tanuki eat anyway
[Chuuya is now in charge of a small furry animal. Thankfully, small furry animal is a fucking small genius since he's about 600 years old and is perfectly happy to just nuzzle against Chuuya and accept pets and attention.
As for the text - ]
leave the window open he'll wander out when he needs something to eat and security won't be a problem with him good night
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Why not?
[It comes out a little more sharply - frustrated as Baren is. There's the surge of text again, flooding a thought bubble -
Why wouldn't you want anyone else? You know there are good people in this city? Against all odds, there are some seriously good people in this city. You can't tell me that you haven't met them. They make sense. Anyone can fall in love with Foxy, especially your dramatic ass. And even the strangers - they still surprise me with how good they are. They're good people. So why not them? They won't leave you after nightmares. They won't break up with you without explanation. They won't hesitate to trust you. They're not fucked up.
Don't you realize what you're waiting for is a disaster?]
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Mm... good people are too boring, I guess? Foxy already let me down easy anyway.
[it's too flippant an answer to be his real one, though. he's just putting his thoughts together a bit more.]
I think you're less of a disaster than you think you are. Yeah, you fucked up when you broke it off, I'm not gonna say you didn't, but... you've still been around for me, you know? You pick up when I call you at ass o'clock in the middle of the night drunk, you keep my secrets, you listen to my issues...
And it's not like I'm not fucked up, either. It's just... fuck, they're not you. That's all it comes down to. They won't sneak in my window to make breakfast or paintbomb a professor who was a dick to me or go out in the middle of the night to do stupid shit together. I don't want them to do it, anyway.
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But.
He didn't expect a why. Sometimes Baren's biggest mistake is forgetting that Chuuya's so blindly honest. At times it's refreshing and it's part of why he likes him so much -
Other times.
It's.]
Shut the fuck up, who asked you?!
[Too fucking much.
(Also you did, asshole.)]
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[baren you're lucky chuuya has a tanuki in his lap or he'd be jumping up to get in your face
he's tempted to anyway, but- ah, he can't just shove him away like that...]
Jeez, next time I'll fucking ignore your ass then.
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[A meaningful answer. One with the same disarming honesty that Baren has no idea how to interpret or handle with any type of grace.
Another thought bubble to translate:
Don't say you still want me when you know what kind of person I am. I don't know what to do with that.
Fuck, what's up with this stupid heartbeat.]
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well, now chuuya is equally flustered. heartbeat?? fuck. his own speeds up at that little revelation, and a bubble pops up above his head too:
Yeah welcome to my fucking life I guess.
he huffs, holding tanuki close and burying his face in his fur. chuuya's voice is muffled.]
Already said it so you're just gonna have to deal.
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So many mistakes were made.
Baren's not looking over at Chuuya's thought bubbles, instead just pressing his face into his hand and trying to school himself out of his own irritation.]
Stupid. Stupid.
[Calm down, fucker. What is even going on? Ugh. I hate him.]
Tanuki, we're going.
[Tanuki does a confused little wiggle at that - are they leaving?]
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[he doesn't want to let tanuki go though... chuuya sighs and gives him one more scratch behind the ears, before finally giving him a little nudge.]
See you whenever, I guess.
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[That'll have to do for now because - I still don't have an answer for you.
And he shakes his head, standing up and letting Tanuki run over to scramble up his leg to sit on his shoulder.
Baren heads for the door, but also seems to hesitate.]
... you'll be okay, Chuu?
[Considering - what he remembered and all.]
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[I don't know. Whatever, I've got a decent stash left if I can't sleep.
he's not looking at baren or the bubble, though, already stretching out on the couch and reaching for his phone. time to catch up on messages and shit.]
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And he leaves it at that, shaking his head and walking out.
.... it's about twenty minutes later that Chuuya might hear the faint scratching of paws against a window, trying to nudge it open.
Tanuki fights against its weight as, much like his owner, he seems to have no personal boundary or respect for things that are meant to be closed off to him.]
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[he knows it won't be baren, not with the noise and definitely not right now, so he has his knife in hand as he heads to check the window out...
but he immediately sets it aside when he sees what's outside, moving to go open the window for him.]
What're you doing back here, huh? Did Baren forget something?
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but Baren is certainly not with him and Tanuki definitely doesn't seem to be poking around for much.
he'll just take a little leap off the windowsill onto chuuya, fully expecting to be caught.
he's here now.
(under baren's direction, but the wonderful thing about tanukis is that they can't give him away)]
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tanuki's not wrong, chuuya is a sucker who catches him without complaint, smiling down at him.]
Just here for the attention, huh... well, I don't mind.
[though now that he's here without baren... chuuya's realizing he's not sure how to be responsible for this small animal beyond giving it affection? he'll need water, right? but- hm. he pulls his phone out to shoot baren a quick message.]
if you lost your tanuki he's back here btw, also what do I give him if he gets hungry?? the fuck does a tanuki eat anyway
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As for the text - ]
leave the window open
he'll wander out when he needs something to eat
and security won't be a problem with him
good night